Dodging bullets.

I've made some mistakes in my life so far and it's ok, you can make mistakes as long as you learn from them and as long as they're not lasting. (If your mistakes are lasting they're called pathetic failures.) Mistakes give us lessons, I've learned mine well. When looking back, I can tell I really dodged some detestable bullets.
Thank God for that.

Today I have a lot of inner peace which I, for many years searched for but peace isn't something you find just like that. My inner peace didn't just show up one day, no, my peace came to me in the form of choices. Choices can be obvious, difficult and devastating, but choices are the network that builds the life we want.

I want peace but with a touch of my madness, I want love, I want joy and happiness, I want more wisdom, I want to travel to different continents and swim in different seas, I want to research more in World War II and I'd love to complete a Ph.D in it, I want to get married, I want to write hundreds of novels and essays, I want to play video games all night on the weekends, I want to live in Berlin or Copenhagen for a while or forver and I want to photograph faces, architecture, weather, flowers, waves of the sea and everything worth remembering although I sometimes claim the best memories remains unphotographed...

So I'm gonna enjoy life,
because life is now.
Therefore I've chosen to make the rest of my life the best of my life.

Thanks for all the love, gifts, surprises and greetings. I've never been so celebrated before in my life and quite frankly I'm still shocked. I can undoubtedly say it's more fun to celebrate 40 than it was to celebrate 30, I feel younger and more alive today.

Especially thanks to my family who constantly spoil me and who managed to surprise me.
Words can never describe how much I love you... 

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